Simply put, the word “duality” in spiritual text is to live between good and evil and though I grew up without religion I still found myself consciously struggling between the two. I often acted out as many teenagers do but found that in my disparity I kept holding onto the idea of a bigger picture. I knew that I was meant for something bigger and better and while others judged my life and cast predictions of teenage pregnancy or an overdose I found fuel in my spirituality. I couldn’t understand it because I thought to be spiritual you had to be apart of a structured religion and to be honest I didn’t know that Jesus and God were two different people until I was about 16 or 17 years old. Needless to say I was terrified because I didn’t understand where I belonged; on one hand I was a social butterfly with anger problems and a part time bad attitude but on the other hand I was blissfully aware that my life had an incredible path all ready for me to walk down if I should choose to do so. It wasn’t until last September my faith was brought to my full attention after the untimely passing of my mother in law, Amra. Her death was shocking and as always, totally unprepared for. It brought my whole family to our knees and in the months leading up to her passing I had become very ill with an undiagnosed stomach problem that caused me to lose twenty pounds. It was a confusing time because while I felt my whole life had flipped upside down, a miracle happened. Within the same month of Amra’s passing, I was finally diagnosed with a chronic disease called “Gastroparesis” and prescribed medicine. Unfortunately, the medicine gave me extreme cardiac side effects that were noticed almost immediately and I broke into piece’s wondering what else could possibly go wrong. At that point I looked up and asked for help from Amra, my angels and God…. One day later I took myself off the medication without hesitation and the following day my severe symptoms were completely alleviated. Without a doubt I knew that my prayers had been answered and that there was no way this rapid recovery wasn’t from a divine source; Almost one year later, my supposed chronic illness still hasn’t given me any problems. This awakening made me realize my truth, my feelings as a child were accurate and I did belong to a bigger picture, all I had to do was ask for the guidance to get there! Right then and there I started my journey to the light and love that is within all of us. My hopes are to share my journey through duality in this blog so others realize we are more than worker bees. We are more than stress and money and everything that comes along with it. So many of us walk through life, lifeless. My vow to God as well as myself is to follow the light as far as it will take me and for those of us who may not believe, I ensure you that this blog is about nurturing yourself and others as well as living a meaningful life. With that said, I leave you with a quote from Marcus Aurelius who was a Roman Emperor from 161 to 180.
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